Should you suck cock?

I hate to break it to you but sucking cock must become your second nature. No, I don't mean go right now in the street and find the first dick to suck, sucking an actual dick is not the point of this. What the heck, now I'm confused, should I suck a cock or not? 

You see, giving a blowjob is more than that, I remember when I first discovered my sissy side and had seen some hypno, all of it seemed strange, but something kept luring me back to it, but the part about blowjobs I just did not get into. Another man's filthy dick in my mouth? Fuck, that shit's gay!

Giving head to a man was, back then,  one of the most repulsive things I could think of, because somehow this would seal the deal for me, and if I did it that would mean I'm totally gay, and I'm not gay, right? So I tried to put the idea out of my mind. But as I discovered more and more of my feminine side, I became ever more curious about it.

Strangely enough, putting something in my boypussy wasn't for me repulsive, it had a logic, it gave me pleasure, I found a reason to do it, which was self centered and selfish, and what is more selfish than doing something only for your pleasure? On the other hand, blowjobs, well, did not seem so pleasurable for me, I mean I put things all the time in my mouth, how a dick could be different? The only thing that gives pleasure when I put in my mouth is food and drinks. Do I really need to see how a cock would feel?

So my curious nature compelled me to buy my first dildo. When it arrived, I'll always remember that feeling, how anxious I was, at last, I did it, so, I grab the packet, run home, open it, and the look on my face was priceless, I was in complete awe of this gigantic cock, I didn't thought it would be so big, but it was. Now, don't get me wrong, I was excited about it, even eager, but also somewhat scared, you see, my clitty is just that, a clitty, seeing a real mans cock for the first time, in real life, was a bit overwhelming. 

What surprised me so much was the submissiveness it instill in me, it made me want to respect it and pleasure it at the same time, all the while not making me feel inadequate, because, him being so big put me in my place, and I was joyous with that. It's a wonderful sentiment to see and accept your role, more so in the presence of a bigger, stronger, more masculine, alpha cock. 

Rapidly I dolled up, slapped on some slutty make-up and grabbed the dildo. My knees were kinda weak from all of it, what better reason to get on my knees and finally do it. Even though my mouth was already salivating with anticipation and my clit started to throb and drip in my panties, I still thought to myself, do I really wanna suck this cock?

And I swear to you, the moment my lips touched the tip of that cock, I moaned, and with every moan, and slurp, and gag I stopped thinking about what I'm doing, and started thinking about what I need to be doing, I stopped feeling dirty and ashamed, and instead I felt so proud, because at last this was the final step to set me free, this was me accepting who I am, this was me embracing my femininity, and with every second of sucking cock I felt more happy and at peace, because, finally, I was true to myself.

I know sucking cock sounds scary or unappealing, but how can you truly know until you've done it? So you should do it. I have a suggestion for you, the next time you feel the need to dress up, have some bananas on hand, maybe put on some make-up, maybe just some lipstick, but it does not matter that much, all that matters is that you feel as girly and comfortable as possible. If you can do that, then I want you to stay in a nice relaxing, comfy, favorite place of yours around your house, maybe put some ambient music, maybe dim the lights a bit, and then lay on that couch, or chair, or bed, close your eyes, control your breathing, focus a bit on that, and as soon as you feel deeply relaxed, start thinking about you bringing home a date, he looks as you want him to look, you bring him in this favorite place of yours and imagine slowly unzipping him, can you see how he looks at you with anticipation? He knows you are going to go down on him and he loves it. Now take a banana, peel it, and start sucking it with your eyes closed, imaging how you would suck his dick. You can touch yourself anyway you like, or not touch at all, do what feels best to you, but if you want and need or you are allowed to cum, you can cum only after your dream date came in your fantasy.